Stress kills

Why am I so stressed all the time?

I know I do it to myself. I know it's my fault.

The word 'balance' has been playing with me for the last few days. There is no balance in my life.

No balance between fast and slow.

No balance between empty and full.

No balance between what I need and what you need.

No balance between what I want and what you want.

No balance between rest and work or play.

Is that enough?

I find myself doing for others but not doing for myself. I stuff food in my mouth and call that doing for myself. I go get a coke as a treat for hard work. Others can ask me to do things but I find it difficult to ask for myself or at least get mad if I did ask and it doesn't happen.

I find myself not even really having enough time to sit down and manage my diabetes. I'd been off my oral medications for a few weeks because I wouldn't take the time to reload my pill minder. I'd been off my insulin for a few days because I was 'busy'.

Stupid.

Getting off the insulin is deadly but the really stupid med to quit taking is my anti-depressant. I do much better when I'm on it in so many ways. I don't get down so easy and it curbs my appetite which then helps with everything else.

So, this lapse hasn't been as long as the others were and I only gained a few pounds and it will just take me a few days to get my sugars back down because they really aren't that high.

BUT I WANT A F'ING COKE.

remembering

Zona Garrigus

September 03, 1956 - September 29, 2008

Zona Garrigus

Zona Rae Garrigus, 52, of Terre Haute, passed away September 29, 2008 following a car accident.

She was born September 3, 1956 in Brazil the daughter of Lowell and Carolyn Cooper Garrigus.

Zona graduated from Brazil High School with the class of 1975 and then Indiana State University in 1979 with a degree in Graphic Arts. During high school she participated on the volleyball, basketball and softball teams. She also participated on the softball team at ISU until retiring due to a knee injury. She worked for Machine Tool Service as a draftswoman and most recently in the Engineering Department for Duke Energy for more than 20 years. She will forever be remembered as a kind and loving person with a great since of humor who loved animals and was a wonderful aunt. She enjoyed watching movies, listening to music and playing sports.

She was preceded in death by her father in law William Ritter; grandparents Frank and Irene Cooper and Mildred and Eugene Garrigus.

Survivors include her partner Sara Ritter; parents Lowell and Carolyn Cooper; mother-in-law Mary Lou Ritter; sisters Marla Norris and husband Gary of Terre Haute and Felicia Face and husband Ronnie of Clarksville, TN; brothers and sister-in-law John and Jeanine Ritter of Wichita, Kansas, Stefan and Muffy Ritter of Decatur, Georgia and Mary Beth Walter and husband Ken of East Hartford, Connecticut; as well as several nieces, nephews and extended family members including Megan, Preston and Logan Face and Griffin Norris.

I don't find gall bladders amusing

On Friday, I got a somewhat panicked call from my daughter, saying she hadn't slept and was in excrutiating pain. She had me call the doctor and we went in when the office opened.

The doctor thought it was gall bladder and ordered a sonogram. She was right. There were gallstones. From there, we proceeded straight to the surgeon.

I have NEVER, EVER had a doctor so thoroughly explain a procedure. In fact, he went into such depth, my eyes were glazing over.

I imagine she will have the procedure at the end of this week.

How dare he . . .

How dare Obama speak to the children of this nation about the importance of education. How dare he?

How dare Obama try to get health care covered for everyone. How dare he?

How dare Obama try to be a consensus building president rather than try to ram things down people's throats. How dare he?

How dare he?

Chilly had a play date

Chilly had a play date with his new friend Ellie. He had a great time, got lots of exercise and some lovin'.

He came home and crashed!!!

Of grandchildren and dogs . . .

Things that have happened lately

----granddaughter thinks my bedroom walls are canvas. I really should take a pic and post it.

----still working on training the dog. He sits, he lays, he stays ANDS POOPS in the house!!!

----still working. Some days it's a lot of hours some days not so much.

----granddaughter is back in preschool and loving it. She is going 5 mornings a week now.

That really is about all I know.

Things that make you go woo-woo

Not really.

Just checking in with my faithful blog readers, both of you :)

Late July, I got myself a puppy at the Terre Haute Humane Society. He's a little chihuahua mix. He's very sweet and very rambunctious.

It's been a little bit of an adjustment for the granddaughter. She's got some jealousy stuff going on. She wants to play but she gets him so riled up that he inevitably ends up scratching her or nipping her and then she of course screams which escalates it MORE!

The cat at first was standoffish but now they play/fight continually. I noticed this morning the dog has many bite marks and scratch marks on his tender little puppy flesh. I'll have to remember to trim nails often.

Potty training is hard! But we are working hard at it. I'd like to have it accomplished before winter.

He walks with me some times but I've decided I need to do leash training outside the confines of my walks. I'm walking for my health and stopping continually doesn't cut it.

Hubby, granddaughter and I traveled to Indianpolis yesterday to have lunch with our son and his wife. She fixed a really nice turkey meatloaf and roasted veggies. I was impressed.

We also delivered their Christmas present. Yes, we know it's August, but they needed it now. We got them a new computer. It was a Lenovo. The same one I bought myself in July.

* Model Number: Lenovo K220-K3644-53581FU
* CPU: Intel Pentium Dual Core E5200
* Memory: 4GB DDR3-1066 SDRAM
* Video: Integrated Intel X4500, DirectX 10 supported
* Hard Drive: 500GB, SATA II
* Optical Drive: 16X DVDRW DL w/ 12X DVD-RAM Drive
* Card Reader: 16-in-1 Card Reader. MD, CFI/II, xD, MS Pro/Duo/Pro Duo, SD, SDHC, Mini SD, Mini SDHC, MMC
* Network: 10/100 ethernet connection
* Accessories: Keyboard and Optical Mouse included
* Operating System: Microsoft Windows Vista Home Premium 64bit w/ SP1
* Warranty: 1 year limited warranty



Other than that my, uh, part time job is keeping me really busy.

Peace to you and yours.